Brown & Gay

Brown & Gay

Where do I begin? Being born and raised in north Toronto to an immigrant working class South Asian family in the late 1980’s was a struggle in itself- to say the least. This was an area where people of colour stood out like a sore thumb.

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“I don’t care what you do, just study, education will give you everything.” Entering my elementary school I was the only brown child among close to a thousand students. That was of course until my younger siblings were old enough to attend. Over the years, there were a few brown faces that stood out, but overall less than a hand full, and barely any my age to associate with.

My perception of brown-ness existed only within my family, religious spaces and film. Growing up my identity was constantly ridiculed as different – from the curry I’d bring for lunch being “too smelly” to the days I forgot to wipe holy ash from my forehead after morning prayer.

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Through high school and early university I had no gay peers, or friends, but just the exaggerated television stereotypes of gay people, all of whom were white. University didn’t turn out to be radically different, brief exposures to queer culture still left a void. Even as I began to work in the LGBT service sector, the brown queer presence was seriously lacking.

Then one day I stumbled upon a short film on YouTube called ‘Brown Like Me.’ And there they were- other brown people with similar experiences, facing similar barriers. ‘Brown

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Like Me’ produced by the Alliance for South Asian AIDS Prevention (ASAAP) highlighted the experiences of 6 queer-identified South Asian youth living in the Greater Toronto Area. It was refreshing to hear candid narratives about identity labels, homophobia, coming out, pride and family. Being Gay wasn’t just for white people. Being gay didn’t make me any less South Asian.

Little did I know that I’d end up working as an educator at ASAAP a few short years later. My work now involves working with Gay, Bisexual and Trans men to break down barriers to accessing healthcare and safer-sex information. Most importantly, I work to create a space where South Asian men feel comfortable being themselves with no shame about who they are.

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For the most part South Asians are not the most comfortable talking about sex and sexuality. Is it because we aren’t having any? Funny, I didn’t think the Kama Sutra was for coffee table reading, nor did I think that population of India surpassed a billion through abstinence. Yet we shy away from these discussions, push them into a category of shame and turn a blind eye.



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there are many others still waiting to be who they are. Whether in Canada, or elsewhere, let’s never let the opinions of others decide who we can and cannot love.


Originally featured in South Asian Generation Next- February 2012